Breathing Moon, over Water

There is a space of reason beyond loss, of comfort in the steel grip of doubt, that has come to exist because we know the kind of brazen pact of so many little unspoken guarantees, the haunted mornings we could not share, the quiet that was full of absence, and even the graces given me by people willing to hear of it, to want for it as well, to see the sublime torment of your distance...

we had spoken of breath, its role as salve and guidance, its ability to observe and to know urgency, to transmit the metaphysical, only by changing the rhythm of its one dance : we had offerred a word of advice to three lost souls —separately, maybe they knew each other and were intertwined in their unraveling— about finding the waves under moonlight, and then we talked in all directions about breath till the moon washed out in the frothy yellow morning, and I remember we said that stretch of sand, and the rippling hints of oceanic depth, glistening with the determined light of that moon that had come for us, would remain as it was, perfect and unassailable inside us and that only those who knew about our shared immortality, our grandiose heartwelling treasure of affections, could know about that breathing moon...

I remember it now, or it remembers me; I am made of that story, that metaphor, that matchless timing of souls, I am composed of that superlative getting-into, that seeping and evolving, that surpassing fixture, by the almost lamentably cumbersome sensation of being lost and adrift in beauty; that's how I recall it, why I'm still searching, still fighting, still reading the signs, marking progress in the hopes of getting back to that, back to the place where we were one shape, one self, two kinds of agony and just marveling and pouring promises into the world...